After my third alarm has rung I finally gather the energy to get up. I have had about three
hours sleep, my computer is next to me on the floor, a few drops are left in my can of
RedBull from the previous night and an empty packet of sweets is lying next to me. I chug
the rest of the can and get up. I start getting ready and need to figure out what to wear. I did
originally want to make an effort today but now I’m not really feeling it anymore, so I settle
to a hoodie and sweatpants, once again. I then start doing my make-up and have to basically
put three layers of concealer to hide the bags under my eyes. I didn’t pack my bag the day
before but I am already late for class so I just hope that I don’t have to add anything more to
it. I pick up my bag that is heavier than me at this point and walk towards the tram stop. I
wait in the cold for a few minutes, trying to keep my eyes open, the tram arrives and I
stumble in. I manage to find a seat and turn my music up to stay awake. After a few stops I
finally get off the tram and walk through the main gate of the school. First, I go to my locker,
which is already full, and have to somehow put even more stuff in there since I only want to
carry the bare minimum. Once I have managed to do that, I go down to the caf to get coffee
and a cookie since I had to skip breakfast, again. I see a few of people doing the same as me
but since I’m already late to class I don’t really have time to talk. I finally arrive in chemistry
and sit down. The teacher starts yapping about electronegativity and I realise I honestly
would have done better to stay in bed. There are about six of us in total since most people
don’t show up anymore. I sigh and start trying to take notes while sipping my coffee. The
teacher then mentions the dreaded word: “IA”. Everyone looks up and sighs. People start
explaining their many traumas from the latter and difficulties they have encountered. I
haven’t even gotten half way through. The class gradually passes by and I go into English and
then break. I go straight to the library and collapse in one of the chairs. I pull out my laptop
and try to decide which IA I should do. I settle for the biology one. At this point I see one of
my friends pass by, looking about as dead as me.
“You going to work on your IAs?” I ask
“No, I’ve got to revise for the mocks, math is the first exam.” I then look up in shock: WE
HAVE MOCKS. “Wait when’s the first exam?”
“Like in 3 weeks.”
“Oh okay.” I feel reassured, that’s in a while. I then go back to typing down the same 5
results about ten times in the same sentence. I spend the rest of the break in this way and
then went to my next class. Lunch break finally arrives. I go down to the caf and grab a
sandwich thing. I see my friends at one of the tables so I go and join them. Most of them are
studying so I put in my airpods and do the same thing. We spend the first part of the lunch
break like this since we don’t really have time to eat out. Eventually the math starts
annoying me so I stop and chat with my friends until the end of break, mostly about all the
work we have to do. I then go into double period French and think I’m going to die. Once it is
finally over, I have a free period to “study”, but I don’t really have the energy or motivation
anymore so instead I go out to a café and scroll on my phone. After this nice break I run back
to my last period of the day: economics. After this class I’m finally free! Once it’s over my
friends propose going out but I don’t really feel like it so instead I said goodbye and go to the
tram. I finally get home and go to the kitchen to raid the cupboard for snacks since I feel like
I deserve it after my long day. I then go into my room and set myself up to study, though this
ends up with me scrolling on my phone and falling to sleep. I wake up at about 8h30, feeling
hungry again. After figuring out where I am, I get up to make myself dinner. After this I
finally get some more studying done and then tell myself I’m going to try to go to bed early
for once. I scroll on my phone for a few hours but then remember that I have a chemistry
test tomorrow. So, I rush to find my notes I start speeding through all types of weird
chemical structures and reactions. By about 1h30 AM I have read so many structures that I
can’t go on and I end up falling to sleep quite soon after.
